This is not me

Mehmet and Yusuf, both married to women, act the part of heterosexual males and family men within their own social circles. Privately, however, they are passionately in love with their male lovers and can only live their truth within the parallel lives they have built with them. The driving character of the film, Mustafa, is Mehmet’s lover of 15 years. Mustafa describes Mehmet as a “homophobic homosexual.” During the first couple of years of their relationship Mehmet violently abused Mustafa because of guilt. In the film we see Mustafa trying to put this very passionate but equally traumatic relationship in the past. Mehmet, however, has no desire to let go of Mustafa.

Director: Jeyan Kader Gülşen & Zekiye Kaçak

Running time: ’92

Language: Turkish

Subtitles: English

Production: Jean Kader Gulsen

Starring: Mustafa, Yusuf, Mehmet 

Film year: 2022